Raya photos - Oct 2008

Writing a book

I was thinking of writing a book. A novel :-) I have so many thoughts of what I actually like to do and how shall I use this likeness and turn it to something that I can do everyday, meaning like a career, which to me means, do things and get paid for it.

Anyway, still thinking and although I seldom write I believed that I am good at it, isn't ironic? Why do I have this thoughts? But anyway, I'm writing again, after many many years...hehehe...will it come true....

Old photos....

A photo taken during Rohani's wedding at Penang, can't remember what year. But I think many years already because Afiq already grown up, so as Adibah. See, Adibah busy sleeping.

Photo of Kak Long, Nabila, Amira and Afiq. Taken during last 2 years raya. They already grown up by now. Missed them....

The photo of my heart :) Getting bigger and bigger everyday and often asked a lot of questions, as usual....children nowadays....

Really like this photo because of Afiq's smile. Me however, close eyes, as usual, can't adapt to the flash :)

Ayu

The Carnival

On last Saturday, 2nd Aug, we went to The Carnival Sg Petani. We heard people said that the place was cool, same like sunway lagoon. Okay, so we went there. My goodness, I strongly think that the person whose giving this statement, has never ever been to Sunway Lagoon. Sunway Lagoon and The Carnival is very far different. Alamak, camner orang tu leh buat such comparison. Totally don't understand. Anyway, Afiq and Haiqal are having so much fun....at least these 2 guy are having much fun :)

Ayu

Don't loose that excitement!!

Why are our days when we are a children is never bored? Yeah yeah there are days during our childhood are boring days. But not so many isn'it kan? Hmmmmm

To me, as an so-called-adults, we see things differently from when we are children. Children thinking was quite relax, they don't think much and go through life with so many things to do, without caring much on whether they should do the thing or not. Especially, small little children, toddler. They tried everything, wanting to touch everything.. but yelah, small children maaa ....don't know yet to think what is right and what is wrong.

But look at the excitement, they are excited when they get new thing. Excited when they meet their friends. As we grew older, I think, we that we think a lot. Well, yes, you should do the thinking before we do something, especially something serious, but then when we think too much, which is sometimes, not necessary, we tend to move backward instead of forward. We were so scare to face the consequences of might that will happen after we make the decision. We're loosing that bravery to try new things once we grew older.

And when we stop trying, the next thing that we will loose is the excitement in life. Yelah, when you did not do new things or did not act differently or changes things, and everyday is the same day, then of course there is no excitement. Of course getting excited everyday also is not something healthy for adults. But once in a while, is necessary or your life will be dead boring.

And not only you're life is boring, the next worst thing that will happen is that you tend to do something unhealthy. For example, for married man, they tend to find new girl friend and start flirting. For singles, they tend to get involved with the wrong people. Something like that.

So, before, you go wild without direction and becoming something that you don't want to, better you go wild with direction. Create excitement in your life, try new things like upgrading your skills, learn something new that will make you a better person and my goodness, there are so many things to trya and to do. So, don't think too much and created that excitement but of course lah people, don't go over the boundry lah.....

Love,
Ayu

So unlucky of me.......

I blew out an job interview opportunity today. I don't know why. But I felt that I'm sick attending interview and at the end no good results come out. So, due to my frustration, I refused to attend interview with so many reasons. And there goes an opportunity.........

However, I still want some changes, new job, meeting new peoples, learning new things but may be this wanting is not so high. The other site of me, do not want any changes, too afraid to face the excitement and very comfortable with current condition.

And also actually, I just don't know what to do with my life....I don't know what I like to do and where should I begin. Or is there any turn over point after this 8 years stuck in my current company. Ohhh I just don't know, where should I start.....and how to start actually!!

Ayu

What do you really like to do?

What do you really like to do?

I keep thinking about this. Well yes, I have the answer. I really like to eat. I like to eat different kind of food, eating at different type of places. Despite that, I do not have problem eating eventough I am not hungry. Whatever lalu I will sapu, of courselah halal food.

So if I like to eat does it mean that I should change career, involve in the food industry? Ehmmm yeah why not.

John Ruskin said, When love and skill work together, expect a materpiece. So, for my case, I like to eat but do not have the relevant skills. Love is already there but skill is still nowhere to be found. I am not even a good cook. Don't even mentioned about the so-delicious-look-like dishes that Chef Wan made but simple food for my family to eat also, I am still below very far below average....

So what is the point here.... If you knew what you like to do, then do it, go for it, find the skills and make it work for you, meaning can make money loh... or in simple term, can cari makan loh. So that you do not so suffer doing your job everyday, because you like it. Am I suffering now??? Oppss......

T

Today is Wednesday. Tomorrow will be Thursday and after tomorrow will be Friday and yes.....the weekend. And this weekend it quite long too becuase Monday is a public holiday.

Wow....I have a long weekend to look forward too...What to do neh?

1) Sleeping

2) Eating

3) Movies

4) Or simply vege out and do nothing....

Well, where is the not-wasting-time-and-beneficial-things-to-do list? I should be reading the 8th Habit book but I am so lazy...suddently I realized that I have loss my interest in readings. I do very less reading these days.

And that is not good....Reading is always good but of course still depend on what you read. But folks don't forget to read beneficial things. I still remember....reading is the food for brain...

So happy reading!

Note: Adibah no need to ready anymore because she's cute and she will go straight to heaven :-)

Ayu

Imagination + Day dream = Excitement

When I was a little girl, I like to have this day dream thing. Imagine that I can fly and then flew away from the bus that I'm on to school or hoping that some sort of alien or prince may come and rescue me from the bus and the school. Not that I hate school but I totally did not support the routine things that I have to do in 5 days a week and that is school. Well, life need to be more than that......and that is what I amagine.....

The sad part of this imagination is that, it still continue until now and none of it has become a reality. But now, since the scenario has change, now that I wish something would occured at my work place resulting with that I do not have to go to work. Or something different take place, for example like I received a bouquet of flowers from either my hubby or even good from a secret admirer. Or there's new guy at the work place who looks like Keanu Reeves....well something like that. As for the reality, it never come true, even getting a flower + chocolate from my dearest husband also did not come true. And of course the Keanu Reeves things did not come true also....

The thing is, this is so childish...I'm a mother of 2 now and still my imgination did not grow further. Still hoping for silly things or wishing for something that I knew will not come true. But that is actually the best part of it, it does not come true. I can wish for the whole world and it does not come true. Well, who cares?? I did not care if it does not come true either. But I still like to continue with this stupid/silly imagination especially when I'm bored. It will make me smile alone and light up my day :-) and nobody knows about it...shhhhhhh......

And whenever I felt sleepy at my workplace, I will imagine myself eating at a fancy restaurant and the food was so delicious.....it really helps because I have passion in food too ;-)

Ayu

How many years have still??

Continue....

In other words, when you are so use to your company, it is kind of difficult to turn into a different environment, to new challenges, new people as you are already blend in to your current things.

I believed this is what happened to me and that is why I'm still here...in a more true words, too scared to move forward, seek for new challenges. Eventhough I stayed in only 1 company, I strongly believed that job hoping is a good thing to do, and very good for career development.

And that is also why my career development is not so good compared to those who job hop.

But still regardless of what it is, meaning why you stay in 1 company only, why you did not job hop and isn't boring to have to stay and see the same faces everyday, regardless of all this, you are still the one responsible for your life. You the boss and you decide what is best for you.

I've decided that my family will be in my number 1 priority. And that the only thing I can do to support my priority is to quit my current job and do not change job if the new job couldn't fit to my first priority. As I am not financeally (wrong spelling) capable now to quit job, thus, even if I am so dead boring now at my current workplace, the next best thing to do is to find a job that is better in term of everything from my current company, which is now still no where to be found. So still here.

If you are in the same boat, what is the next best thing to do?? There are 2 things to do..

(1) find a method to allow you to get the same amount of money and at the same time able to stay at home and become a real mother
(2) since you still can't quit job and being boring is no fun either, choose to perform well, to turn boring to exciting....


Trust me...life is jut about making choices and mathematics, You still have to calculate the risk.

Good Luck!!

How many years have you work at the same work place?

When I first join the company that I worked now, I keep thinking.... How does it felt like when you already worked in the same company for 10 years, because I met a few friends that worked in the same company for 10, 20 years. Gosh...don't they felt bored? I really wonder...

Now I have the anwer. I have been working for this company for 8 years and I still couldn't believed it. It reaching 10 years soon. I still couldn't believed. Emmmm, I actually managed to see the same thing, same people, same environment for 8 years already. And soon 10 years. How did I did that? How did I sustained? Wow....too good to be true.

Then, the answer, based on my own experience, why people stay is because;
family - if you changed job, different country may be, so you would have to move and not only you, as for my case, the whole family has to move. Hassle, trouble. So, next you would think of a company that is beside the current company, or at the same location - so that nothing would have to change other than you. Family not affected.

To be continue...