This is the month of February....and in this month, there's a day for love celebration....hmmmm celebrating love....do we really need a day to celebrate love? It's only a day in the whole year, is it enough to celebrate a big thing like love in a day?
So, I don't really agree of having a day specifically to celebrate love. What I would like to do, to have, is to love and to be in love, everyday, every single minutes....love is a powerful feelings....it can do you good if you channel it to the right direction and vice versa....thus, it can makes you happy and insane too...
Come back to celebrating love...you do not need a specific day to celebrate love, it can be everyday...but what you certainly need is to be able to show your love, to demonstrate, illustrate your love to your loves one. For example, love between a man and a woman. A woman would always like to hear words of love once in a while, to receive gift or simple notes of love. Not that they don't know that their lovers love them, but it is a need, a simple needs that often forgetten by married couples especially, that can give a big, bad consequences. Finding and obtaining true love is difficult, but sustaining and maintaining the love is even a bigger, greater challenge.
Love is like a tree, if you don't water it, no fertilizer put to the soil, no sun, it will die.
As for men, generally all or may be almost 90% of them, does not really think that they need to show love....May be it is beacuse of their nature too, plus the high ego...they were like thinking, hey I married you, I'm here with you everyday, I live with you, isn't that enough to show that I love you?? I gave you so many signs of love, so why can't you read the signs....why it is still a need to be saying
"I love you"....
Well guys, it is just three words, and if you say it fully hearted, honestly....your loves one will certainly appreciate it. Again especially for married couples, don't forget those words, those are the fertilizers...and you if don't or forgotten to express your love to your lady, fearfully, your lady will have the tendency of finding a man that will be saying those words and express of love to her...
But of course, it needs two to tango....
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Life is muzukashi neh....
Often I have so many expectations on my own life. And when things does not goes as per what i planned, I kept thinking of why that I choose to have so many expectations on my life. I kept thinking of why can't I be normal. Be like everyone else. Like normal average people, they looked happier to me...their life looks easy...they looks like they don't have much things to worry about. It is simple and easy and convenient.
But why they look up to me? Why they want to be like me?
I believed it is because other people's lawn always looks greener to us.....but is it really greener at the other side?
We are always not satisfied with our current performance and our current life. Which can be a good thing and also a bad thing? It depends on how we look at it, how we interpret it, how we want it to be? And thus, it comes back to the basic....life is about making choices....and we have to choose accordingly as what we choose must be compatible with our design or else.....malfunction...
But why they look up to me? Why they want to be like me?
I believed it is because other people's lawn always looks greener to us.....but is it really greener at the other side?
We are always not satisfied with our current performance and our current life. Which can be a good thing and also a bad thing? It depends on how we look at it, how we interpret it, how we want it to be? And thus, it comes back to the basic....life is about making choices....and we have to choose accordingly as what we choose must be compatible with our design or else.....malfunction...
Thursday, December 17, 2009
What will you do if you hate someone??
What will you do if you hate someone?? Do you runaway from him/her? You try not to be at the same place with him/her? You avoid using the same route that he does so that you will not bump into him? You, of course try to not to have any conversation with him/her?
But if he is your boss….He is someone that you will have to deal with everyday…he is a family members that you can’t escape whenever there’s a family gathering. And you often feel like you wanna bite him, wanna scream to his face….
If you were in this situation, first you need to check on whether only you alone having these issues with him or he is confirmed to be such a nuisance and a lot of people also having issues with him and you were just his favourite target….this is the number one fact that you need to clear of because it leads to different kind of action.
IT’S ONLY YOU…
So, after you are clear and the answer is, you found that you were the only person that have issues with him. So, next, what you need to do is that, you need to check on yourself first. There are possibilities that it’s you, actually having the problems. It’s something in you that make you hate him or make him hate you. Look deeply, because sometimes we are just not able to see our own wrongdoings that have lead the other person to react in such a negative way towards you. Once you found the error, fix it. End.
If after you look deeply and still you found nothing, the next wise thing to do, is to have a crucial conversation with that person. The idea is that, you would like to stop hating him and stop talking behind his back and stop running away from him, because it is just not healthy to continue hating a person, and it makes you tired and exhausted too. For a crucial conversation, you can start by describing your dissatisfactions on how he treat you that resulted with you, everyday, trying to avoid and running away from him and that now you are tired. So, you would like to solve the issue, improve the relationship and you need feedback from him on the actions that you may be able to take to improve the relationship. And to find ways, to fix the error so that both of you will be able to live in peace and harmony. Once you get the feedbacks and the method, work on it. End.
EVERYBODY HATES HIM
This is easy, stop hating him. The rational is that, he is not even worth to be hate. In fact, you should be pity on him for he has some “screw loose” at his head causing him acting in such a nuisance ways towards everybody. So, how to do it… Whenever, he is trying to act or speak in an annoying manner, what you need to do is to stay in silence, smile and think in your head, that pity him, for he had a “screw loose” in his head, causing him mentally unstable and forgive him for that With this, you won’t hate him, his words or act will not hurt your feelings, your blood pressure will not increase, and you lose nothing and you’re happy
However, if you can’t felt sorry for him, try not to be like him. For example, if he shout at you or said harsh words to you, don’t reply him back with the same manner. Because you certainly don’t want to demonstrate that you are also having some “screw loose”, don’t you ;0
Ayu
But if he is your boss….He is someone that you will have to deal with everyday…he is a family members that you can’t escape whenever there’s a family gathering. And you often feel like you wanna bite him, wanna scream to his face….
If you were in this situation, first you need to check on whether only you alone having these issues with him or he is confirmed to be such a nuisance and a lot of people also having issues with him and you were just his favourite target….this is the number one fact that you need to clear of because it leads to different kind of action.
IT’S ONLY YOU…
So, after you are clear and the answer is, you found that you were the only person that have issues with him. So, next, what you need to do is that, you need to check on yourself first. There are possibilities that it’s you, actually having the problems. It’s something in you that make you hate him or make him hate you. Look deeply, because sometimes we are just not able to see our own wrongdoings that have lead the other person to react in such a negative way towards you. Once you found the error, fix it. End.
If after you look deeply and still you found nothing, the next wise thing to do, is to have a crucial conversation with that person. The idea is that, you would like to stop hating him and stop talking behind his back and stop running away from him, because it is just not healthy to continue hating a person, and it makes you tired and exhausted too. For a crucial conversation, you can start by describing your dissatisfactions on how he treat you that resulted with you, everyday, trying to avoid and running away from him and that now you are tired. So, you would like to solve the issue, improve the relationship and you need feedback from him on the actions that you may be able to take to improve the relationship. And to find ways, to fix the error so that both of you will be able to live in peace and harmony. Once you get the feedbacks and the method, work on it. End.
EVERYBODY HATES HIM
This is easy, stop hating him. The rational is that, he is not even worth to be hate. In fact, you should be pity on him for he has some “screw loose” at his head causing him acting in such a nuisance ways towards everybody. So, how to do it… Whenever, he is trying to act or speak in an annoying manner, what you need to do is to stay in silence, smile and think in your head, that pity him, for he had a “screw loose” in his head, causing him mentally unstable and forgive him for that With this, you won’t hate him, his words or act will not hurt your feelings, your blood pressure will not increase, and you lose nothing and you’re happy
However, if you can’t felt sorry for him, try not to be like him. For example, if he shout at you or said harsh words to you, don’t reply him back with the same manner. Because you certainly don’t want to demonstrate that you are also having some “screw loose”, don’t you ;0
Ayu
Friday, December 4, 2009
Tertipu juga aku
Tertipu juga aku
Walau telah banyak juga ilmu yang aku tahu
Walau beribu batu telah aku pergi memburu
Walau telah banyak guru-guruku memberi ilmu
Namun tertipu juga aku
Kerana aku membenarkan diriku tertipu
Tertipu juga aku
Bukan kerana kebodohanku
Bukan kerana pendeknya akalku
Bukan juga kerana kurangnya pengalamanku
Tetapi aku tertipu kerana itu pilihanku
Tertipu juga aku
Tertawan apabila meneguk manisnya madu
Tenggelam dalam keseronokan palsu
Dan aku jadi kelabu
Dalam menentukan arus hidupku
Lalu arus yang penuh debu, tipu, palsu
Itu jua yang jadi pilihanku
Dan yang terlalu memilukan aku
Kerana aku tahu
Tetapi aku tetap membiarkan diriku tertipu
Walau telah banyak juga ilmu yang aku tahu
Walau beribu batu telah aku pergi memburu
Walau telah banyak guru-guruku memberi ilmu
Namun tertipu juga aku
Kerana aku membenarkan diriku tertipu
Tertipu juga aku
Bukan kerana kebodohanku
Bukan kerana pendeknya akalku
Bukan juga kerana kurangnya pengalamanku
Tetapi aku tertipu kerana itu pilihanku
Tertipu juga aku
Tertawan apabila meneguk manisnya madu
Tenggelam dalam keseronokan palsu
Dan aku jadi kelabu
Dalam menentukan arus hidupku
Lalu arus yang penuh debu, tipu, palsu
Itu jua yang jadi pilihanku
Dan yang terlalu memilukan aku
Kerana aku tahu
Tetapi aku tetap membiarkan diriku tertipu
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Poligami??
Di penghujung zaman ini, wanita semakin ramai. Adakah poligami merupakan jalan penyelesaiannya? Betapa hebatnya Allah SAW…….
Aku sering kali tertanya-tanya, mengapa begitu sukar untuk wanita menerima poligami. Ianya sesuatu yang telah dicipta hukumnya oleh Allah SAW, tetapi mengapa begitu ramai yang menentang, yang sukar menerima, yang telah memberi amaran kepada suami-suami mereka untuk tidak berpoligami malah menyebut tentang poligami pun tidak dibenarkan.
Aku juga seorang wanita. Dan aku juga sering berfikir, sekiranya ujian ini menimpaku, adakah aku boleh menerimanya? Redha dengan pemberian Ilahi? Suatu malam aku telah bermimpi yang suamiku datang bertemu denganku bersama seorang wanita. Suamiku menyatakan hasratnya untuk berkahwin lagi. Melihat suamiku memegang tangan wanita itu telah membuat aku hilang kata-kata dan mengeluarkan air mata. Hancur luluh hatiku hanya kerana melihat suamiku memegang tangan wanita itu. Bagaimana pula nanti sekiranya mereka berkahwin? Aku menangis semahunya dan merasakan dadaku sesak sehingga aku terjaga dalam keadaan masih menangis. Fikirku patutlah, ramai wanita tidak rela dimadu…..
Namun aku berfikir lagi……adakah layak untuk aku tidak membenarkan suamiku berpoligami hanya kerana memenangkan rasa cemburuku? Hanya kerana aku tidak merelakan wanita lain memegang suamiku, bermanja dengan suamiku, berkongsi kasih dengan suamiku?
Aku masih berpijak di bumi nyata. Aku bukan sahaja seorang isteri, ibu, anak, tetapi aku juga seorang teman, seorang sahabat kepada rakan-rakanku. Aku mempunyai ramai teman wanita yang masih tidak mendirikan rumahtangga. Kebanyakan rakan wanitaku ini berkerjaya, sudah memiliki rumah dan kereta sendiri, cuma tiada suami. Mengapa mereka tidak berkahwin? Begitu sukar untuk mencari lelaki bujang yang berkelayakan menjadi suami? Memang benarpun, sudahlah spesies lelaki makin menyusut, yang ada pulak ramai dah masuk pusat serenti dan yang selebihnya memilih untuk jadi mak nyah pula…Maka tidak hairanlah kalau bilangan lelaki bujang yang berkelayakan semakin berkurangan. Menurut teman-temanku lagi, kalau suami orang, ramai yang boleh dibuat calon…dan ramai yang ingin memperisterikan teman-temanku ini terdiri dari suami orang. Namun benar juga, sukar untuk menerima lamaran mereka sekiranya isteri-isteri mereka tidak membenarkan.
Dan lazimnya memang isteri mereka tidak membenarkan dengan alasan bimbang suami mereka tidak dapat berlaku adil dan bimbang hak-hak mereka akan dirampas. Betul juga alasan ini kerana kebanyakan suami yang ingin berpoligami kini, hanya kerana menunaikan tuntutan nafsu, tanggungjawab dan sebagainya diletakkan di senarai terakhir. Maklumlah, bak pepatah orang puteh “Love is blind”. Inilah yang mencemarkan nama poligami. Dan apabila wanita menolak poligami, janganlah hanya wanita yang dipersalahkan.
Bercakap mengenai hak-hak isteri, bagaimana pula hak-hak wanita bujang zaman ini? Adakah kita menafikan hak mereka? Jika mereka ingin mempunyai keluarga sendiri, anak sendiri, ingin memenuhi naluri mereka sebagai seorang manusia, ingin merasakan betapa indahnya mengandungkan anak sendiri………bagaimana? Sekiranya lelaki yang bujang dan berkelayakan telah semakin kurang bilangannya berbanding wanita bujang dan lelaki berkelayakan dan sudah berkahwin pula tidak dibenarkan berkahwin lagi….adakah kita akan menyuruh teman kita yang belum berkahwin, sudah bergelar andartu untuk menerima takdir mereka seadanya yang mereka akan membujang sepanjang hayat? Atau apabila mereka terjerumus ke lembah maksiat kita akan berkata yang itu bukan masalah kita. Memang mudah untuk berkata-kata. Aku pernah mendengar kata-kata seorang teman, kesunyian itu juga satu kemiskinan.
Jika aku meletakkan diri aku di tempat seorang isteri yang akan menghadapi poligami, aku tentu akan bimbang adakah aku mampu untuk menerima seorang wanita lain untuk berkongsi kasih dengan suamiku? Berkongsi katil dengan suamiku? Adakah suamiku akan masih menyayangiku? Adakah suamiku akan masih mengasihi anak-anakku?
Jika aku meletakkan diriku di tempat seorang wanita yang telah mempunyai segala-galanya melainkan suami, aku tentu inginkan belaian kasih sayang seorang suami, aku tentu inginkan sebuah keluarga, aku tentu ingin bergelar seorang ibu. Dan aku tentu berasa sunyi apabila pulang ke rumah yang kosong setelah pulang dari tempat kerja…..
Hanya Allah SAW juga yang lebih mengetahui, setiap sesuatu yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya. Setiap sesuatu yang telah Dia tentukan pasti yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.
Sekiranya, tiba masa, suamiku terpilih olehNya untuk menjalankan poligami, aku berharap agar aku akan diberi kekuatan untuk menghadapinya. Aku berharap agar aku akan dapat menyokong suamiku untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawabnya. Aku berharap agar aku akan sentiasa sedar yang cinta nombor satu hanyalah cinta pada Allah SAW. Bukan sahaja untuk menghadapi poligami malah untuk mengharungi setiap saat dalam kehidupan ini. Kerana aku hanyalah hambaNYa yang lemah, hina lagi tidak berdaya.
AYu
Aku sering kali tertanya-tanya, mengapa begitu sukar untuk wanita menerima poligami. Ianya sesuatu yang telah dicipta hukumnya oleh Allah SAW, tetapi mengapa begitu ramai yang menentang, yang sukar menerima, yang telah memberi amaran kepada suami-suami mereka untuk tidak berpoligami malah menyebut tentang poligami pun tidak dibenarkan.
Aku juga seorang wanita. Dan aku juga sering berfikir, sekiranya ujian ini menimpaku, adakah aku boleh menerimanya? Redha dengan pemberian Ilahi? Suatu malam aku telah bermimpi yang suamiku datang bertemu denganku bersama seorang wanita. Suamiku menyatakan hasratnya untuk berkahwin lagi. Melihat suamiku memegang tangan wanita itu telah membuat aku hilang kata-kata dan mengeluarkan air mata. Hancur luluh hatiku hanya kerana melihat suamiku memegang tangan wanita itu. Bagaimana pula nanti sekiranya mereka berkahwin? Aku menangis semahunya dan merasakan dadaku sesak sehingga aku terjaga dalam keadaan masih menangis. Fikirku patutlah, ramai wanita tidak rela dimadu…..
Namun aku berfikir lagi……adakah layak untuk aku tidak membenarkan suamiku berpoligami hanya kerana memenangkan rasa cemburuku? Hanya kerana aku tidak merelakan wanita lain memegang suamiku, bermanja dengan suamiku, berkongsi kasih dengan suamiku?
Aku masih berpijak di bumi nyata. Aku bukan sahaja seorang isteri, ibu, anak, tetapi aku juga seorang teman, seorang sahabat kepada rakan-rakanku. Aku mempunyai ramai teman wanita yang masih tidak mendirikan rumahtangga. Kebanyakan rakan wanitaku ini berkerjaya, sudah memiliki rumah dan kereta sendiri, cuma tiada suami. Mengapa mereka tidak berkahwin? Begitu sukar untuk mencari lelaki bujang yang berkelayakan menjadi suami? Memang benarpun, sudahlah spesies lelaki makin menyusut, yang ada pulak ramai dah masuk pusat serenti dan yang selebihnya memilih untuk jadi mak nyah pula…Maka tidak hairanlah kalau bilangan lelaki bujang yang berkelayakan semakin berkurangan. Menurut teman-temanku lagi, kalau suami orang, ramai yang boleh dibuat calon…dan ramai yang ingin memperisterikan teman-temanku ini terdiri dari suami orang. Namun benar juga, sukar untuk menerima lamaran mereka sekiranya isteri-isteri mereka tidak membenarkan.
Dan lazimnya memang isteri mereka tidak membenarkan dengan alasan bimbang suami mereka tidak dapat berlaku adil dan bimbang hak-hak mereka akan dirampas. Betul juga alasan ini kerana kebanyakan suami yang ingin berpoligami kini, hanya kerana menunaikan tuntutan nafsu, tanggungjawab dan sebagainya diletakkan di senarai terakhir. Maklumlah, bak pepatah orang puteh “Love is blind”. Inilah yang mencemarkan nama poligami. Dan apabila wanita menolak poligami, janganlah hanya wanita yang dipersalahkan.
Bercakap mengenai hak-hak isteri, bagaimana pula hak-hak wanita bujang zaman ini? Adakah kita menafikan hak mereka? Jika mereka ingin mempunyai keluarga sendiri, anak sendiri, ingin memenuhi naluri mereka sebagai seorang manusia, ingin merasakan betapa indahnya mengandungkan anak sendiri………bagaimana? Sekiranya lelaki yang bujang dan berkelayakan telah semakin kurang bilangannya berbanding wanita bujang dan lelaki berkelayakan dan sudah berkahwin pula tidak dibenarkan berkahwin lagi….adakah kita akan menyuruh teman kita yang belum berkahwin, sudah bergelar andartu untuk menerima takdir mereka seadanya yang mereka akan membujang sepanjang hayat? Atau apabila mereka terjerumus ke lembah maksiat kita akan berkata yang itu bukan masalah kita. Memang mudah untuk berkata-kata. Aku pernah mendengar kata-kata seorang teman, kesunyian itu juga satu kemiskinan.
Jika aku meletakkan diri aku di tempat seorang isteri yang akan menghadapi poligami, aku tentu akan bimbang adakah aku mampu untuk menerima seorang wanita lain untuk berkongsi kasih dengan suamiku? Berkongsi katil dengan suamiku? Adakah suamiku akan masih menyayangiku? Adakah suamiku akan masih mengasihi anak-anakku?
Jika aku meletakkan diriku di tempat seorang wanita yang telah mempunyai segala-galanya melainkan suami, aku tentu inginkan belaian kasih sayang seorang suami, aku tentu inginkan sebuah keluarga, aku tentu ingin bergelar seorang ibu. Dan aku tentu berasa sunyi apabila pulang ke rumah yang kosong setelah pulang dari tempat kerja…..
Hanya Allah SAW juga yang lebih mengetahui, setiap sesuatu yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya. Setiap sesuatu yang telah Dia tentukan pasti yang terbaik untuk hambaNya.
Sekiranya, tiba masa, suamiku terpilih olehNya untuk menjalankan poligami, aku berharap agar aku akan diberi kekuatan untuk menghadapinya. Aku berharap agar aku akan dapat menyokong suamiku untuk melaksanakan tanggungjawabnya. Aku berharap agar aku akan sentiasa sedar yang cinta nombor satu hanyalah cinta pada Allah SAW. Bukan sahaja untuk menghadapi poligami malah untuk mengharungi setiap saat dalam kehidupan ini. Kerana aku hanyalah hambaNYa yang lemah, hina lagi tidak berdaya.
AYu
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Its my birthday!!!
Today is my birthday! So, today I am going to share on something that I always like to talk about……big dreams.
Do you have big dreams? Or you often have nightmare until you forgot to dream? Or you don’t dare to dream. Dreams are free so you can have the biggest dream, the wildest dream, the mission-impossible-dream and the whatever-you-like dreams, of course anything that you want.
The facts are
1) Dreams are free
2) You can dream of anything you want
3) Nobody can limit your dream other than yourself
4) Like the internet, dream has no limits too
So, knowing all these facts, why are we so afraid to dreams…..are we scared that we may not be able to achieve our dream? Well, another fact is that, if you have big dreams but no action taken to reach the dream, don’t worry…..your dream will remain a dream. It will not come true. If its come true, it is simply because you’re the lucky one. But you have to remember that the percentage of being lucky is very thin. So, chances are, you are not the lucky one, so your dream will remain a dream. This is what the malay saying “angan-angan mat jenin”. Only dreams…..
However, if you have dreams, you actually already on Step 1 of being an enthusiastic, positive, high motivation, brave, successful person. Because you dare to dream. Often when a person has big dreams and they are smart, they shall put a ladder on to achieve that dream. Like what Frankly covey said in 7 habit, habit # 2, begin with the end in mind. You shall have to put what you have in mind (in your dreams into a blue print). Why did he said blue print and not drawing or writing or painting? Its blue print because it must be very detail and precise.
Blue prints are normally used for a plan of a building or a machine. So, it must very details and precise, or else you will never get to build the building or the get the machine to perform its function. So, as dreams. If you did not translated your dreams into a blue print, there are high possibilities that you are still not able to see your dreams clearly, you are not sure of what you really want. Therefore, you will not achieve it. Of course, when the targets are not clear, how are you going to throw the darts?
Okay, so everybody clear? Step 2 is to put the dreams into a blue print. I am also still did not have that blue print ……..and the more pathetic thing is, I kept wondering every day, why my dreams remain dreams…haiya…....
Dreams, hope, will get you to go through life will full of spirit, happier, high motivation, positive. So don’t stop dreaming. But of course la….don’t get lost in your dream until you’re not stepping in the real world.
For my birthday, one of my dreams is that my husband will come to wish me a Happy Birthday, with a good-delicious-birthday cake and the present is a fully-furnished-bungalow with modern style interior design, at a very strategic area….ahahaha…..I love dreaming :)
All the best!! See you at step 3 :)
AYu
Do you have big dreams? Or you often have nightmare until you forgot to dream? Or you don’t dare to dream. Dreams are free so you can have the biggest dream, the wildest dream, the mission-impossible-dream and the whatever-you-like dreams, of course anything that you want.
The facts are
1) Dreams are free
2) You can dream of anything you want
3) Nobody can limit your dream other than yourself
4) Like the internet, dream has no limits too
So, knowing all these facts, why are we so afraid to dreams…..are we scared that we may not be able to achieve our dream? Well, another fact is that, if you have big dreams but no action taken to reach the dream, don’t worry…..your dream will remain a dream. It will not come true. If its come true, it is simply because you’re the lucky one. But you have to remember that the percentage of being lucky is very thin. So, chances are, you are not the lucky one, so your dream will remain a dream. This is what the malay saying “angan-angan mat jenin”. Only dreams…..
However, if you have dreams, you actually already on Step 1 of being an enthusiastic, positive, high motivation, brave, successful person. Because you dare to dream. Often when a person has big dreams and they are smart, they shall put a ladder on to achieve that dream. Like what Frankly covey said in 7 habit, habit # 2, begin with the end in mind. You shall have to put what you have in mind (in your dreams into a blue print). Why did he said blue print and not drawing or writing or painting? Its blue print because it must be very detail and precise.
Blue prints are normally used for a plan of a building or a machine. So, it must very details and precise, or else you will never get to build the building or the get the machine to perform its function. So, as dreams. If you did not translated your dreams into a blue print, there are high possibilities that you are still not able to see your dreams clearly, you are not sure of what you really want. Therefore, you will not achieve it. Of course, when the targets are not clear, how are you going to throw the darts?
Okay, so everybody clear? Step 2 is to put the dreams into a blue print. I am also still did not have that blue print ……..and the more pathetic thing is, I kept wondering every day, why my dreams remain dreams…haiya…....
Dreams, hope, will get you to go through life will full of spirit, happier, high motivation, positive. So don’t stop dreaming. But of course la….don’t get lost in your dream until you’re not stepping in the real world.
For my birthday, one of my dreams is that my husband will come to wish me a Happy Birthday, with a good-delicious-birthday cake and the present is a fully-furnished-bungalow with modern style interior design, at a very strategic area….ahahaha…..I love dreaming :)
All the best!! See you at step 3 :)
AYu
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Sometimes, we just have to look down...
When we first knew about Adibah, that she is a special child with a special syndrome that until today is still under investigation and is still unknown, we were blur, speechless....its been a week that both of us were in deep silence.
But then, enough of this silence and blur thing, we need to move on very fast as we need to fix Adibah's heart or she has the chance of dying due to pneumonia. The blood vessel at the heart is with hole and thus blood goes to the lung which then can contaminated the lungs, and she will suffer for pneumonia.
I just can't wait. I wanted the operation to be done soonest possible. I am just too worried that I may lost her and our target at that time, is just to fix the heart and save her...
But still, I guessed we were preety tough, Alhamdullilah for all the strength that He has given us.
However, continuing life with the fact that your child is very different from a normal child, is not something easy. There is one time, an officemate delivered a healthy, normal baby girl. Everyone in the office pay her a visit, but I did not. And it was just because at that time, it just hurt my feelings very much seeing other people having a normal child.
And then the people closest to us also having healthy normal child, came Dania, Danish...all beautiful, healthy normal babies. Not that I wished that they had a child like mine...no its not that...I just hope that Adibah is also as beautiful, normal, healthy like them....and later that I realised, am I still not able to accept the fact that Adibah is a special one? That I had a child with a really rare syndrome that makes her not able to grow at the speed of a normal baby, not able to hear, to see??
It hurts me, because I look up.....when I looked down, I met Gilbert, a ten years old child, feeding through a tube, not able to move anywhere on his own. I met a few friends that to me are much less fortunate than I am. These friends, also have a special child and at the same time, they are poor. They don't have enough money to give their child, his/her special needs.
Hah....I am so grateful.....Adibah may not be able to see, to hear, but she can still smile. She can still move - in her own style. We still have enough money, to buy the best things for her....and with this, am I still not grateful???
And after I had Adibah, I can feel that I am different person. I changed a lot. I appreciate life more, I am so motivated to continue living, doing the best for her and for other child like her. By the way, how can I'd be not motivated when Adibah, a deaf-blind, is so highly-motivated to continue on living even though the world is not for her. She continued learning, even though her learning pace is very very very slow.
So, sometimes, we need to look down and have a very high faith in Allah SAW. For everything that he gave us, are the best.....
But then, enough of this silence and blur thing, we need to move on very fast as we need to fix Adibah's heart or she has the chance of dying due to pneumonia. The blood vessel at the heart is with hole and thus blood goes to the lung which then can contaminated the lungs, and she will suffer for pneumonia.
I just can't wait. I wanted the operation to be done soonest possible. I am just too worried that I may lost her and our target at that time, is just to fix the heart and save her...
But still, I guessed we were preety tough, Alhamdullilah for all the strength that He has given us.
However, continuing life with the fact that your child is very different from a normal child, is not something easy. There is one time, an officemate delivered a healthy, normal baby girl. Everyone in the office pay her a visit, but I did not. And it was just because at that time, it just hurt my feelings very much seeing other people having a normal child.
And then the people closest to us also having healthy normal child, came Dania, Danish...all beautiful, healthy normal babies. Not that I wished that they had a child like mine...no its not that...I just hope that Adibah is also as beautiful, normal, healthy like them....and later that I realised, am I still not able to accept the fact that Adibah is a special one? That I had a child with a really rare syndrome that makes her not able to grow at the speed of a normal baby, not able to hear, to see??
It hurts me, because I look up.....when I looked down, I met Gilbert, a ten years old child, feeding through a tube, not able to move anywhere on his own. I met a few friends that to me are much less fortunate than I am. These friends, also have a special child and at the same time, they are poor. They don't have enough money to give their child, his/her special needs.
Hah....I am so grateful.....Adibah may not be able to see, to hear, but she can still smile. She can still move - in her own style. We still have enough money, to buy the best things for her....and with this, am I still not grateful???
And after I had Adibah, I can feel that I am different person. I changed a lot. I appreciate life more, I am so motivated to continue living, doing the best for her and for other child like her. By the way, how can I'd be not motivated when Adibah, a deaf-blind, is so highly-motivated to continue on living even though the world is not for her. She continued learning, even though her learning pace is very very very slow.
So, sometimes, we need to look down and have a very high faith in Allah SAW. For everything that he gave us, are the best.....
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