Pimpinlah aku ke syurga

Suamiku
Telah lebih sedekad mencintaimu
Jarak masa kadangkala mengelirukan aku
Adakah aku masih yang kau cinta dulu?

Suamiku
Selama menempuhi jarak waktu itu
Bagaimana prestasiku?
Adakah aku menyenangkan hatimu?
Adakah aku membuatkan kau tersenyum?
Adakah menyentuhku membahagiakanmu?

Suamiku
Aku hanya manusia biasa
Sepertimu, aku juga mendambakan syurga
Namun pasti tiada redha Tuhanku tanpa redhamu

Dengan itu suamiku
Tatkala aku lalai dalam tanggungjawabku sebagai isterimu
Ketika kadangkala aku terlalu meminta-minta akan nikmat dunia
Menagih selalu kata-kata cinta darimu
Merayu-rayu lebih banyak masamu untukku

Maafkanlah aku
Aku cuma isteri alaf ini
Yang mudah hanyut dalam menongkah arus dunia
Namun tetap mendambakan syurga serta segala nikmatnya
Maka aku merayu suamiku
Jangan lepaskan tangan ku walau apa jua yang berlaku
Dan jangan jemu memimpinku......


AYu

Worries....

Do you have worries? I have so many worries….

Last week, my darling baby was sick. I was so worried….. if she was sick because it’s time for her to return back to the Creator. I was so worried even though I am so aware that this is beyond my control.

When I drive, I am worried that I may get involve in an accident and return back to the Creator. Will I be able to answer all the questions in the next life? Will I be bringing a lot of good deeds with me or I shall be bringing with me all the sins and wrong doings? Will I be proud to tell the Creator of what I have done with all the gifts, the life, the age that He had given me. Or will I be so ashamed of my own self for there is nothing good that I’ve done with my life other than wasting it for the world that I am certainly knew is only a short, tiny journey of life.

When I heard of friends diagnosed with cancer, I was worried that what if, I shall be tested with the same disease. Will my loved one be able to take care of me? Will he be there for me? Will my family be strong to hold my hand along the way? Will I be strong to face it?

I am worried of losing too. If I lost my loved one, will I be able to stand and continue living. Will I be able to cope with life without them? What will I do if I miss them? To whom shall I seek should I need love and support? Will I be able to accept the fate? That all is given to us is a loan from the Creator and that only He has the rights to retrieve it back anytime He wants. Everything that is given to you…. money, wealth, health, children, happiness….is all His…..So, He certainly has the right to take it back without prior notice…..will I survive the test of lost?

And when I’ve seen a perfect couple, a couple that have gone through 15 years of marriage life, filing a divorce, I am worried too. Will I be able to always lead a happy, meaningful marriage life? What if my loved one found someone new and so fond of her and forgets all about me. Forget of all the years that we’ve spend together. Forget that we’ve been in love? Will love always be there for me? Will he always love me? If it happens, how will my heart cope with the pain? Will my heart be broken into pieces and will it ever cure again?

Hah…..I have tonne of worries……but I have cure for all my worries….
Syukur….

To the Creator, we shall come back. For all my worries, for all my hopes, for all my dreams, I shall seek and lean to the Creator. For we need to have high faith that Allah SWT decides what’s best for us. Life is difficult, hence, I am so glad, so grateful, felt so blessed for I knew I certainly have a best place to turn to……

Daripada Abu ai-Abbas, Abdullah bin Abbas r.a., beliau berkata, “Suatu hari saya berada di belakang Nabi S.a.w., lalu baginda bersabda, “Wahai anakanda, aku akan mengajarkan kepadamu beberapa perkara: Jagalah Allah, nescaya Dia akan mengjagamu. Jagalah Allah, nescaya Dia akan selalu berada di hadapanmu. Jika kamu meminta, mintalah kepada Allah, jika kamu memohon pertolongan, mohonlah pertolongan kepada Allah. Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya andaikata sekelompok orang bersatu untuk mendatangkan sesuatu manfaat kepadamu, mereka tidak akan dapat memberikan manfaat sedikit pun kecuali apa yang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu. Dan andaikata mereka bersatu untuk mendatangkan sesuatu yang memudharatkanmu, nescaya mereka tidak akan memudharatkanmu kecuali musibah yang memang telah Allah tetapkan bagimu. Pena telah diangkat dan lembaran telah kering.” (HR. Tirmizi, dia berkata, “Hadis ini hasan Sahih”).

Dalam sebuah riwayat selain Tirmizi dikatakan, “Jagalah Allah, nescaya engkau akan mendapatkan-Nya di hadapanmu. Kenalilah Allah di waktu senang, nescaya Dia akan mengenalmu di waktu musibah. Ketahuilah bahawa apa yang ditetapkan luput darimu, tidaklah akan menimpamu, Dan apa yang ditetapkan akan menimpamu, tidak akan luput darimu. Ketahuilah bahawa kemenangan itu bersama kesabaran, dan kemudahan itu bersama kesulitan, dan bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan.

SWEET SERENDIPITY

Since there is not much connection between my heart and my head, there's nothing to write....I just want to be strong....you never know when you're gonna fall....

LEE DEWYZE - SWEET SERENDIPITY

I ain’t got no car
And I've got one pair of jeans
They’ve been stretched too far
And now they’re weak at the seams
I can’t say what’s next
And I got nothin' up my sleeve
But I don’t lose my head
Cause it ain’t really up to me

[chorus]
And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity

I don’t ask for a lot
No nothing more than I need
Because I love what I got
Don’t need to play the lottery
I just want to be strong
At the end of the road
I don’t want to hold on
I want the strength to let go

[chorus]
And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity

And what will be will be
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I aint gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet

Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity
Like Sweet Serendipity

Don’t look fate can only find you
You can’t choose for something to surprise you
Set sail without a destination
Just see where the wind will take you
You never know when you're gonna fall
But I'm not worried
No I'm not worried

[chorus]
And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happened yet
Somethings watching over me

And I’m doing just fine
I’m always landing on my feet
In the nic of time
And by the skin of my teeth
I ain’t gonna stress
Cause the worst ain’t happend yet
Somethings watching over me
Like Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity
Sweet Serendipity

Don’t look fate can only find you
You can’t choose for something to surprise you
Set sail without a destination

Sweet, sweet
Sweet, sweet
Sweet Serendipity

Ironic

I remembered....being in love......

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic... don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

ALANIS MORISSETTE - Ironic

Happy Birthday Miss Heaven!!

Shhhhh
Did you hear that?
Did you hear that weird noises at midnight
like someone mumbling, giggling, grrrr ing...
Who is that?

Then you turn on the light and you see a smile

Is it an alien?
No...

Or is it a weird creature from the labyrinth?
No...

Ohhhhh...
It’s Adibah
My giant baby from heaven

Happy birthday my sweetheart!
They may look at you with that weird looking face...
But it’s okay because I looked at you with love, lots and lots of love
I love you and will always do, InsyaAllah….

Happy 7th Birthday, my giant baby!
May you grow up, healthily, beautifully...

The Moon and The Star

21 Sept 1996 was Mr Moon and Miss Star first date. Miss Star had noticed Mr Moon for quite some time as Mr Moon loved jogging by the route near Miss Star’s planet. However, Mr Moon only noticed Miss Star after the pencil box incident. And a few more other incidents that happened around the earth and the sun, resulted with them getting closer.

Despite the fact that Mr Moon did not meet Miss Star’s prince charming criteria and Miss Star, did not really qualify as Mr Moon’s sweet-long-await-dream-princess, they fell in love. Mr Moon was very much In love with Miss Star. He was willing to give up everything and anything for Miss Star. He even transformed from a not-so-and-don’t-know-how-to-be-romantic person to the most-romantic person on the earth and the sun. And he could even draft a poetry for Miss Star :) Miss Star was very happy.

Thus, Mr Moon proposed to Miss Star to become his first wife. Although Miss Star loves Mr Moon, she was not so sure about marriage as she felt like she got thousand of things that she still need to do on earth before getting married. However, Miss Star was firm with the decision after Miss Star’s mom told her that Mr Moon was the perfect candidate that Miss Star could not afford to lose.

Therefore, Mr Moon and Miss Star get married on 26th Aug 2000. Miss Star cried on her weeding day because she realized that she could no longer always be with her family. She was also afraid of the fact that she had to dedicate her life to her husband. Poor Miss Star...her tears ruined her make up.....

Although Mr Moon and Miss Star loved each other, they often fight and quarrel and the frequency of this event, increased after marriage. Fortunately, Mr Moon was a very patient partner.

When Miss Star get angry, Mr Moon will be quiet.
When Miss Star cried, Mr Moon will be quiet again.
When Miss Star upset, Mr Moon will again be very quiet.
Due to this circumstances, Miss Star then get tired...

The journey of Mr Moon and Miss Star continued with the born of their son, Mr Phlegmatic. If you find Mr Moon having the personality of a calm-patient-sweet person, Mr Phlegmatic is a more calm-more patient-more sweet person. This was not a surprised as Mr Phlegmatic was a carbon-copy and the better version of Mr Moon. Only that Mr Phlegmatic is too calm and often mistaken as too slow. Mr Phlegmatic join the group of Mr Moon and Miss Star on 24 May 2001.

So now, there are Mr Moon, Miss Star and Mr Phlegmatic in the house on earth. Along the journey, Mr Moon and Miss Star frequency of fighting had gone really low. The frequency is really reduced until Mr Moon and Miss Star were wondering on whether is it because
a) life is getting boring until there is nothing to be debate about or
b) because they finally understood each other very well or
c) it is just simply because Miss Star is getting older and having less energy to fight.

Hence, their life is more stable and peace and prosperous.

But this environment did not last for long, on 6 Sep 2004, Miss Star delivered another baby. It’s a girl, Miss Heaven. She is called Miss Heaven because of her incapability to hear and to see the world.

(Note: If you can’t enjoy the world, it means, you will go straight to heaven once you leave the world)

Since, Miss Heaven was an unexpected, special gift to Mr Moon and Miss Star, for a couple of years Mr Moon and Miss Star was very busy fitting, squeezing, and adapting to both Mr Phlegmatic and Miss Heaven.

Today, Mr Moon and Miss Star had been married for 11 years. Mr Moon and Miss Star had a mutual understanding on their dreams and path of life. They had decided on the plan and the sacrifices that they had to make in order to achieve their dreams.

Mr Moon, in order to achieve the dream, is now living somewhere else, coping with his job. He is very busy coping with his work to realize the plan and dream and to make sure that his group had enough to eat, to spend and to live, while he is climbing the ladder towards the dream. Can’t always be there for his love, Miss Star is one of the sacrifices that he can’t avoid.

Miss Star is now in the mode of a relaxing and going through a happy, too normal and too much spare time that leading to boredom life. Miss Star top priority is now Mr Phlegmatic and Miss Heaven. Hence, anything that Miss Star wishes to do, she must make sure that Mr Phlegmatic and Miss Heaven is not neglected.

Mr Phlegmatic is now the body guard of Miss Star. His rules is more stringent than Mr Moon. Wherever and whenever Miss Star wished to go and to do must be reported to him.

Miss Heaven, despite of her incapability to see and to hear, had become the night watch for the group. She will sleep in the day and will stay awake at night together with a giant yellow snail and a giant red ant to make sure that the group was safe at night. So, at night, Miss Star is having a giant baby, giant snail and giant ant to protect the colony.

With this, Mr Moon and Miss Star life was complete. Even though, their productivity is really slow, the body guard (Mr Phlegmatic) and the night watch (Miss Heaven) really colored their life.

Hence, Miss Star is no longer wishing for the stars and is very grateful to the Master of the Universe for lending her Mr Moon, Mr Phlegmatic and Miss Heaven to accompany her in this short journey of life. She wishes nothing more than a reunion of her, Mr Moon, Mr Phlegmatic and Miss Heaven in the eternity life after death in heaven.

To:
Mr Moon and Miss Star – Happy Anniversary!!

Balance?

Always I’ve been thinking on how to align life, between dunia and akhirat? How to be balance? How to perform well in both? Or should we only be the best for akhirat and leave out dunia? Be the best for akhirat because that is compulsory and for dunia, is only optional? How should we do it? Can we be wanting both, dunia and akhirat. Can the dunia activities also leading to akhirat and vice versa? Can both be synergize?

The answer is yes. I’ve seen people that perform well, dunia and akhirat. It is difficult to explain this in words until I’ve read the books written by Prof Dr Muhd Kamil Ibrahim and Dr Ridzwan Bakar. Thank you very much Norhidayah for sharing these valuable, resourceful books that to me is able to describe how to be excellent, dunia dan akhirat.

Hence, below are the words written by Prof Dr Muhd Kamil Ibrahim, in one of the books “Bila pintu hati terbuka” ...

"Mulai hari ini – jika anda mahu mendengar nasihat saya – saya mahu anda bangun bersolat malam, minta ampun, bertaubat dan berdoa kepada-Nya. ALLAH telah berjanji akan memakbulkan segala pemintaan yang kita mohon dengan syarat kita lakukan dengan penuh keikhlasan, dalam ketakutan dan mempercayai yang DIA Maha Berkuasa. Jika kita gagal sekalipun, kita akan reda kerana kita sepatutnya mempercayai yang ALLAH lebih tahu apa yang tidak kita ketahui.

Pergantungan kepada ALLAH merupakan kunci kepada kekuatan dalaman seseorang insan".

Yes, that is the key, pergantungan kepada ALLAH. That will lead the way to be excellent in both dunia and akhirat...InsyaALLAH...