Thursday, August 18, 2011

Balance?

Always I’ve been thinking on how to align life, between dunia and akhirat? How to be balance? How to perform well in both? Or should we only be the best for akhirat and leave out dunia? Be the best for akhirat because that is compulsory and for dunia, is only optional? How should we do it? Can we be wanting both, dunia and akhirat. Can the dunia activities also leading to akhirat and vice versa? Can both be synergize?

The answer is yes. I’ve seen people that perform well, dunia and akhirat. It is difficult to explain this in words until I’ve read the books written by Prof Dr Muhd Kamil Ibrahim and Dr Ridzwan Bakar. Thank you very much Norhidayah for sharing these valuable, resourceful books that to me is able to describe how to be excellent, dunia dan akhirat.

Hence, below are the words written by Prof Dr Muhd Kamil Ibrahim, in one of the books “Bila pintu hati terbuka” ...

"Mulai hari ini – jika anda mahu mendengar nasihat saya – saya mahu anda bangun bersolat malam, minta ampun, bertaubat dan berdoa kepada-Nya. ALLAH telah berjanji akan memakbulkan segala pemintaan yang kita mohon dengan syarat kita lakukan dengan penuh keikhlasan, dalam ketakutan dan mempercayai yang DIA Maha Berkuasa. Jika kita gagal sekalipun, kita akan reda kerana kita sepatutnya mempercayai yang ALLAH lebih tahu apa yang tidak kita ketahui.

Pergantungan kepada ALLAH merupakan kunci kepada kekuatan dalaman seseorang insan".


Yes, that is the key, pergantungan kepada ALLAH. That will lead the way to be excellent in both dunia and akhirat...InsyaALLAH...

Friday, July 8, 2011

Unfaithful partner

Yesterday, at Mix FM, JD and Dilly were talking about unfaithful partner. They were talking about this in relation to Cheryl Cole, who would like to re-unite with her ex-husband Ashley. Her husband cheated on her, leading to a divorce. So, the debate is on whether you would accept and give a 2nd chance to an unfaithful partner or totally say no to a cheating partner.

From my personal point of view, a husband and wife, both, as life partner, should certainly and very much mandatory in need of the faithful and loyal value. It is among the values that pillar a marriage. Of course....how to share your life with a person that you can’t trust? You need to have this believe that your life partner is being faithful to you and vice versa in order to lead a healthy-prosperous marriage life. I have this mind setting that planted in the neurons in my brain that once a couple committed to a marriage, it’s like having speechless words that you can feel, deep in your heart, let’s love and trust each other, live together and share everything.

With this paradigm, will cheat / being unfaithful acceptable? I don’t think anybody like to be cheated. And of course, getting cheated by your most trusted person will certainly cause you great sorrow. But then, for Muslims, the man can marry 4 women, with terms and conditions applied. Thus, the guy will then said, “Hey, I’m not cheating…. I am fulfilling my role as an eligible man to have more than one wife.” So, how do you react to this?

Hmmmmm...let’s put in a case study using your imagination. You are the first wife. Your husband is having an intention to marry another woman. The condition of this case is your husband is an eligible man and you did not wrote a MOU before your wedding saying that your husband will not marry another woman as long as you are able to perform your task and responsibility as a wife. In other words, you do not have strong reason to say no to your husband’s intention. So, the question is would you like your husband to be frank with you, tell you straight in the face that he would like to marry another woman before he start dating? Hence, he is not cheating because you actually know about it. Will you feel better about it?

Or because it hurt so much to know that you need to share a husband that you feel like it is better for him not to tell you. Because once you knew, the pain will commence? And because it hurt so much that you don’t want him to tell you about it and pretend not to know about it, is a much easier situation for you to handle?

I don’t know the answer too. Muzukashi neh....to all wife, not to worry and let’s don’t further elaborate the situation. I strongly believe that if you are chosen to be tested, it means you certainly have the capability to tackle the difficulties and test assigned to you. Life is short, so don’t spend it being worried sick and suspicious all the time.

The above case is not the worst case scenario. The worst will be, a married man having an affair with a married woman, vice versa… This is called big time, totally unacceptable, unforgiven, unbearable cheating.

But still it happened around us...why?

Again, case study, utilizing the power of your mind, activating the R-hemisphere preferences in your brain.

You are a married woman, and you have a living husband. But your husband is a wooden stool. You can sit on it but not too comfortable. Often you have backache because you can’t relax your back. In addition to this, because it is wooden, it is so rigid and not flexible. Then, at your work place there is a guy who is like a massage chair, who had his eye on you. Totally fallen for you. You are very comfortable with him. He knew how to take care of you. He knew exactly how you feel and often help you to ease your burden at work. A massage chair, totally not a comparison to a wooden stool. So, you are having internal conflict, how not to fall head over heels to this guy. He is the man of your dream. And back at home...a wooden stool...

Ladies, regardless of how the situation is, cheating wife is not acceptable, for whatever reason. For example, your husband is a illegal, unprofessional wrestler, he hit you everyday. So, you felt like you got reason to cheat on him. No, you are not eligible. You can't use this situation as an excuse.

Well, of course I did not say that you shall need to accept it, as it is and suffer your whole life. What you need to do, is first to get rid of him, then only you'll find another man.

For the case of the wooden stoll...you will say, ohhhh come on, he is a wooden stool...and how to say no to a massage chair? Well, yes, it is a temptation that is difficult to resist. But still life is about making choices. You are what you choose. And trust me, a woman was born with an element of loyal inside you. You are full of this element that will gurantee that you won't happy by neglecting this element because its in you.

Come back to the main topic, will you accept and forgive a cheating partner?

Everybody makes mistake. You may be blinded on a massage chair for a while. But then when there is no electricity, the massage chair is not functioning. And it is too big, so it is not mobile. You start missing your wooden stool. You want your wooden stool back. You want a second chance.

What will the wooden stool say? Maybe....

A) Wooden stool will be able to forgive and forget. Because he love you so much and he is not able to hate you. After he done the soul searching, he realized that, this will not happen if he can be both a wooden stool and a massage chair for you. Hence, he took accountability on what that had happened. Furthermore, he was thinking of the children. He knew the children would certainly want the parents to stay together. So, with all these reasons, he gave a second chance.

B) He was so hurt and hate it very much when he think of you being with another guy. This is something that he felt he can’t tolerate. So, he is having this thinking that enough is enough and don’t appear in front of me anymore. No second chance....

Life is full of choices, so choose wisely for you are responsible for everything that you chose :)

And when life gets harder, choosing gets harder, being faithful gets harder, there is always the Almighty for you to lean to, for you to ask, for you to refer to. For every question there’s an answer, for every obstacle, there is solution. So, don't worry, be happy!

AYu

Friday, June 24, 2011

Hobby = No Oscar = Yes



I now have a new hobby, visiting Korea and being with Oscar. Every day, I see Oscar. I listen to Oscar. And as a result, I am addicted to Oscar. I think I really like him, for now. However, then I came to realize, hobby by definition from the mobile dictionary is something a person enjoys doing (usually / frequently) in his / her spare time and not for pay. Not for pay is correct, Oscar did not pay me to listen or to see him every day. Unfortunately, doing it in his / her spare time is incorrect. I see him all the time. Hence, I am confused. I am confused on 2 things, is this a hobby and why do I have so much of spare time. Why is my time are now all spare? See....confused already.

Well, although I am confused, I am not that clueless. In fact, I am so aware of the time spending attitude and behavior that I am behaving now. In short, this is not a hobby, this is called wasting time. OMG...

In the earlier phase of my life, wasting time is the least activity that I’ve done. I am sure of this since, I am very busy doing the time management things to make sure I’ve done and successfully completed my tasks.

In my school years, I love reading storybooks even though I spend less time reading school textbooks :) And during school holidays, I was busy helping mom selling nasi lemak and after that, as usual basuh pinggan.

In the university years, I am busy coping with studies and being in love. Totally, no wasting time activities. Being in love is not under the category of wasting time. Being in love is under the category of fulfilling the nature’s law :) while investing for future and lifelong partnership.

In my early work life, I am at the busiest. Coping with work, with family. Only 2 items but so complicated. At work, I need to carefully do the time management or else will be working like 24 hours. You have a long list of things to do and less time to do it. And some more under high pressure as all the things to be done quick, complete, meticulously and of course you have to ensure that the results is excellent. During these years, I think I cried a lot. I have hard time, coping with a hectic workplace and coping with my partner. Well, you know the-aligning-values-expectations-hope-with-a-new-too-close-intimate-living-thing-on-earth = husband. Those years are really challenging. And those years are the precious years that I think I have learnt the most. No regrets.

Okay, let’s not continue pushing the reverse button. Now, I have lots of time. Since it is a lot, wasting some of it will not be hazardous, isn’t? But the problem now arise as I am not wasting some of it, I am wasting a lot of it. Minna-san (frens), I am aware of this and still looking for corrective action. Thus, today, I am proudly announcing (as if this is something to be brag about !!) that I am issuing myself a corrective action request. The non conformity in the corrective action request written as

“Failure to make full use of time. Current time spending is not acceptable and not beneficial to own self development , family and organization. The failure may resulted with shrinkage of mind, as the food for mind is now only Korea and Oscar.”

In a system that I comply and apply previously, once corrective action is issued, the person receiving the corrective action request shall have 7 days to answer and reply. So, I have 7 days to put a corrective and preventive actions plan and to ensure that the nonconformity will not re-occur. Good luck to me!!

Note: Tall + rich + handsome = Oscar

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Touched.....

A korean song from the drama - My girlfriend is Gumiho that touched me, deep.....

I still don't understand love
So, I'm unable to get closer
But why my silly heart keep pounding
I come across you again and again
I just can't escape
Towards this helpless love

My heart hurt endlessly
A day has passed
All I think about is you
The pitiful and foolish me

What should I do
What am I going to do
My heart hurt so much
From this helpless love

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Photos at Penang and Kelantan ;)

Vacation at Penang










Vacation at Kelantan












Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Let's happily and cheerfully go on diet ;)

Recently, my dear life partner often asked us to go jogging. Jogging......I never like jogging however, after few series of jogging (but actually more walking) activities, I felt something. I felt that I’m heavy and I could only jog for less than a few centimetres (even not meters to illustrate on how bad I am at jogging). How frustrating and irritating?

How come it not be irritating....while I was so in very short-breath, like almost end-of-life and needing CPR, there’s an uncle, at the age of almost 60 years old, jog passed through me. Then, there’s an aunty, like in late 40s, also passing through me, happily, breathing easily. Gosh.....I am so ashamed of myself. What happened to my fitness level.....hello......fitness? Hello........

I hate to admit it but I just could not deny it, I am not fit and overweight.

How could I let this happen? How could I be so cruel to my own body? Since I like to dress up, how could I do nothing about it and just accepted it as it is?

Number 1 fact

This is the heaviest weight in my life. I’ve never been to this weight even when I’m pregnant.

Number 2 fact

Eating, to me is an entertainment. I felt so delightful and overwhelming only by talking about food and when eating.... I really could do the eating, loosing myself in the food. The feeling is so great. It’s like the saying, diamond is a girl best friend. But for my case, food is my best friend and eating is one of my happiness. Even when I already fall asleep and then you wake me up in the middle of the night, telling me, hey let’s eat burger, I will just wake up and eat the burger, delightfully. In other words, it is very difficult for me to refuse eating and to reject an eating invitation. It’s a temptation that I can’t resist....and without food I’ll be depressed and feeling like my life is a misery and is over.

Hence, having this sort of thinking, dieting is never the word that appeared in my life. I may say it out loud that I want to go on diet, but I was never serious about it.

However, now, I am also certain of a few things.

1) I don’t want my weight to continue increasing. And I don’t want my BMI to be at the overweight column.
2) I want to be fit and I want to be able to jog happily for at least half kilometer.
3) I want to easily shop for clothing.
4) I want to see me in fit body which means without the spare tyre and visible excessive fat that certainly won’t make you pretty in your very own eyes.

Thus, I need commitment plus with high consistency and persistence to start a new daily menu. Since I am so passionate about eating, skipping meals will certainly not work for me. So, I shall first try to control my food consumption and to be selective in food choices. This is called smart eating :) Therefore, initially, I shall try this out. I need to divert my love for food to make me healthy instead of making me obesity. Love is good but still overdosed in love is toxic.

Frens.....fightin!!

Below are the list of 11 choices of food that is good for your diet that I extracted from Yahoo. Thanks Yahoo ;)


Yogurt

Mmmm. This creamy, tangy snack is loaded with calcium -- and studies show that calcium may curtail weight gain by hindering the absorption of fat in the small intestine. Check out these other good eats that are bursting with calcium.

Good Sources of Calcium
How much calcium you need, and why, plus calcium-rich foods

Benefits of Calcium
Calcium is essential for strong bones and teeth, and it helps prevent arthritis. But that's not all this mineral is good for. Calcium helps your brain communicate with your nerves and regulates blood pressure, and it may reduce the symptoms of PMS and the risk of colon cancer.

Recommended Amount: How Much You Need
Government guidelines suggest 1,000–1,200 milligrams (mg) of calcium per day is adequate, but RealAge recommends a bit more: 1,000–1,500 mg per day from food and calcium supplements -- but not all at once. Your body can absorb only 500–600 mg at a time, so divide it into two or three doses over the course of a day.
Tip: If you take calcium supplements, take them with vitamin D (they're often combined in one pill) to help absorption -- and with a little magnesium to reduce the constipation sometimes caused by calcium. Don't pair calcium with iron or fiber supplements, which can interfere with your body's ability to absorb the bone-building mineral.

Good Sources of Calcium
Yogurt, plain, low fat (8 ounces) 415 mg
Ricotta cheese from part-skim milk (1/2 cup) 335 mg
Soymilk, fortified (8 ounces) 300 mg
Spinach, cooked from frozen (1 cup) 290 mg
Milk, 2% milk fat (8 ounces) 285 mg
Swiss cheese, shredded (1/4 cup) 214 mg
Cheddar cheese, shredded (1/4 cup) 204 mg
Salmon, canned (3 ounces) 181 mg
Soybeans/edamame (1/2 cup) 130 mg
Tofu (3 ounces) 100 mg
Parmesan cheese, shredded (1 tablespoon) 55 mg

Eggs

Turn breakfast into a fat-burning morning boost by skipping the stack of pancakes and feasting on a couple of eggs instead. According to a study, huevos beat out carbs when it came to helping folks feel full longer and helping them beat back snack attacks later in the day. Here's how eggs helped folks lose 65% more body weight in a recent study.





A Breakfast Favorite That Blasts Fat?
By RealAge



What popular breakfast food may help you peel away pounds? Clue: You have to crack 'em.
Yep. Be they poached, scrambled, or sunny-side up, eggs may be a real friend to dieters. Here's why.

Eggs Beat Bagels
In a study, people on a low-calorie weight loss plan who ate two scrambled eggs and unbuttered toast (with jelly!) for breakfast lost 65 percent more weight than dieters who had a bagel with cream cheese for their morning meal. How do eggs help? They may simply keep people feeling satisfied longer than carbs do -- and eating less later on. (Worried about the cholesterol in eggs? Find out where things stand in the ongoing debate.)

Remember the Big Picture
Keep in mind that this study included a low-calorie diet. That means eating eggs for breakfast helps only if you're watching what and how much you eat the rest of the day, too.

Pistachios

Nuts may be high in fat, but it's the healthful unsaturated kind of fat found in pistachios. And like all nuts, pistachios offer lots of hunger-curbing protein and fiber. All of these qualities together explain why adding pistachios to the diet helped dieters in a study curb their appetites and lose more weight. Here's more on how pistachios and other nuts pull off this feeling-full feat.
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Grapefruit

Of all the foods rumored to boost weight loss, grapefruit is likely the most famous. And research confirms that this fruit's get-slim celebrity status is for real. One study in particular revealed that eating half a grapefruit before each meal helped dieters shed more pounds than people who skipped the tart appetizer. Get hip to why most fad diets don't work and can actually be dangerous.
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Don't Believe the Hype: Fad-Diet Fallacies
By RealAge
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No doubt you've heard at least one friend, family member, or coworker talk about his or her experiences with the Atkins approach, the South Beach Diet, or the Zone. But before counting carbs was all the rage, a low-fat lifestyle was the diet du jour. And before that . . . well, you get the picture.
The buzz surrounding these popular programs can make even the most sensible eater a little curious. And if you're searching for a way to lose stubborn pounds, these programs may seem like far more than a curiosity -- they may sound like the answer to your prayers.
Unfortunately, few people experience long-term success with fad diets, and a large percentage of the population is still overweight. How can that be? Simple: Rather than helping people understand and adopt a lifelong approach of balancing caloric intake with calories burned, fad diets often give people excuses to eat insensibly, hindering their attempts to make permanent, healthy changes to their diets and lifestyles.

How to Avoid Being Taken
Occasionally, there are a few valuable lessons hidden in some of these elaborate diet plans, but you need to sift through misinformation and oversimplification to get to the practical, healthful nutrition advice. So when it comes to fad diets, here are two quick ways to alleviate confusion:

1. Beware of misleading buzzwords. Once the buzz about the latest diet trend begins, marketers latch on to certain key words and product points that appeal to people who are watching their weight with the trend. Then, the food industry responds by focusing on words and claims that suggest their products can help dieters follow a particular diet plan. Unfortunately, these buzzwords are often misleading, allowing the manufacturers to capitalize not only on consumers' curiosity but also on their lack of certainty about nutrition labeling.
Take, for example, one of the buzz phrases in low-carb dieting: "net carbs." Dozens of products now claim to have low "net carbs" or low "impact carbs." Both of these terms sound technical. But the truth is that these terms were created by the diet and food industry.

They have not been evaluated, approved, or regulated by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA).

If it's not a government-approved labeling method, there's no way to evaluate what the term means or whether it's benefiting your health.
Furthermore, this "net carb" terminology does not generally provide an accurate estimate of total carbohydrate content. The FDA calculates total carbohydrates by subtracting grams of protein, fat, water, and ash from the total weight of the food. This number is listed on the food label as total carbohydrates.

Diet-food manufacturers calculate "net carbs" by taking total carbohydrates and subtracting fiber, glycerin, and sugar alcohols, all of which are forms of carbohydrates. This gives the appearance of reduced amounts of carbohydrates in their products and suggests that the products don't raise blood sugar, even though they do.

Unfortunately, the use of such labeling has expanded to hundreds of other foods and may lead you to believe you are consuming fewer carbs and calories than you actually are.

Avocado

This green goddess of heavenly, creamy taste can help you whittle your waist. It's true! Researchers suspect that the unsaturated fat in avocados may ratchet up body levels of the hunger-halting hormone called leptin -- a hormone that lets your brain know that you're full, so you stop eating. Find out what fats make you hungrier and what ones can help curb the munchies.


That fatty bacon cheeseburger may be loaded with calories, but at least it stomps out your hunger. Right?

Not necessarily. Compared to low-fat meals with the same number of calories, meals that are basically fat fiestas do an odd thing: The saturated fats in them make your body release less leptin, a hormone designed to turn off appetite. Saturated fats are the belly-bulgers and artery-agers found in fats that come from four-legged sources: high-fat red meats, butter, full-fat cheeses, and other whole-milk products. (Trans fats are just as bad, by the way.) Sat fats are rarely found in plant foods, with two vital exceptions: palm and coconut oils.

To help your body release leptin -- which is stored in fat cells (see? you knew they were good for something) -- you need to eat healthful unsaturated fats. Find them in nuts (especially walnuts), seeds, olives, avocados, most vegetable oils (especially canola), many fish, and even algae (or DHA omega-3 supplements made from algae). You don't want to avoid fat altogether: You need it to maintain your energy, absorb certain nutrients, and repair tissue. And moderate amounts of healthy fat are associated with a decreased risk of heart disease.

You also want to help leptin do its #1 job: telling you, "You're not hungry any more." So in addition to avoiding sat fat, adopt these waist protectors:

Mushrooms

If you want to try an easy and tasty calorie-cutting trick, then replace the meat in your favorite recipes with mushrooms. You'll automatically cut about 420 calories out of a meal, partly because you'll skip all the belly-padding saturated fat contained in meat. And folks in a recent study found mushrooms just as tasty and filling as meat.


Here's a simple way to slash major calories from some of your favorite comfort foods -- and you won't miss a thing.

When you're making lasagna, sloppy joes, chili, and other ground beef dishes, use chopped mushrooms instead of meat. If you're like the people in a recent study, you'll naturally eat about 420 fewer calories with these mushroom-enriched meals. (Need help losing holiday pounds? Try the Amazing Soup Diet in our New Year, New You Center.)

The Other Red Meat
People in the study also said the mushroom makeovers tasted just as good and kept them feeling full just as long as the beef versions did. And not only did the mushroom-based dishes mean a lower-calorie meal, but the mushroom eaters also ate fewer calories and less fat throughout the day than the beef eaters did. (Check out the Savory Mushroom Stroganoff recipe in this article.)

Olive Oil

This rich-tasting oil found in salad dressings and marinades contains a hunger-busting monounsaturated fat called oleic acid -- which triggers a complicated process in the gut that ultimately tells your brain you're full and makes you want to stop eating. Olive oil also plays a starring role in heart-healthy Mediterranean-style diets.
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Whole Grains

Ready to trade your belly bulge for a flat tummy? Then toss your refined grains into the garbage, and eat more whole grains instead. Research shows this one move can help whittle your middle. We're talking brown rice, quinoa, steel-cut oats, whole-grain cereal, and 100% whole-wheat bread and pasta. Discover how whole grains helped flatten the bellies of 3,000 men and women in a recent study.
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Ditching belly fat may be a simple matter of choosing the right rice or bread. And the choice to make? Whole grains.

You probably already love whole grains for their heart-healthy, disease-defying superpowers. So new research on their belly-fat-busting abilities should vault whole grains to the top of your grocery list.

A One-Grain Guy
In fact, the more whole grains you add to your diet in place of refined grains, the better off your waistline will be. In a new study where scientists reviewed the diets of close to 3,000 men and women, they found a strong correlation between belly fat and grain choice. The whole-grain lovers tended to have less belly fat than refined-grain buyers -- and had smaller waists, too. But eating more whole grains had a fat-curbing effect only when it was combined with a low intake of refined grains. So eating that whole-grain cereal at breakfast doesn't mean you can slack off and have the white-bread sandwich at lunchtime. (Here's another stomach-slimming secret: Cook with this type of fat.)

The Magic Number
Just how many whole-grain servings do you need to stay slim? Researchers think at least three servings daily is a good goal. That can be achieved with half a cup of steel-cut oatmeal in the morning and a couple of slices of whole-grain bread for your sandwich at lunch. But not just any whole-grain bread. Find a loaf that's high in fiber. Researchers suspect the waist-friendly qualities of whole-grain products come, in part, from the appetite-steadying fiber found inside. Whole grains also have lots of magnesium, which is good for improving insulin sensitivity.

Red Pepper

Add some heat to your meals and you'll boost not only the taste but also the effectiveness of your weight loss diet. A dash of cayenne pepper or some diced jalapeno or red peppers will do the trick. They all contain capsaicin -- the heat-inducing compound in red peppers that, according to research, tamps down appetite and curbs food intake later in the day. A similar compound in sweet peppers may hinder fat storage, too.


Fava Beans

Creamy and hearty, fava beans are a lean protein source bursting with flavonoids. And in a 14-year study, these special antioxidants were shown to help hinder the accumulation of extra belly fat. Slim your belly and your body with this fat-blasting plan from the YOU Docs.


Rice with Veggies

Adding some high-fiber vegetables like broccoli, carrots, and kale to your rice will obviously help lower the calorie count. But not only that. Adding veggies to rice at lunchtime appears to slow stomach emptying, according to research. The end result? You feel full longer. In fact, people in a study ate much less at dinner when they added veggies to their rice at lunch. Here's more on how rice and vegetables work together to keep you full.


Shrink your appetite, your calorie intake, and your pants size with just one little addition to your rice: vegetables.
In a recent study of normal-weight people, mixing vegetables into a plain rice dish at lunch helped people feel fuller for the rest of the day. So much so that they ate way fewer calories at dinner than the folks who had their rice straight up.

Less Is More
Mixing veggies with the rice also lowered the calorie density of the lunch dish, shaving off a solid 100+ calories from the meal. So whether you opt for brown, basmati, or long-grain, adding things like broccoli, carrots, peppers, and onions to your rice can help cut calories from your day twice. And that's twice as nice for your waist! (Here's another way to cut your appetite. Eat a little of this kind of fat.)

Weight Loss Weapon
It's not entirely clear why the lower-calorie veggies-and-rice dish produced a better effect on all-day hunger compared with the rice-only dish, but researchers suspect the high water content of produce may have been part of the key. High water content makes vegetables bulky, creating the visual illusion that the rice-plus-veggie serving was extra generous and hearty, and therefore more filling. Plus, eating high-fiber veggies helps slow stomach emptying. Whatever the hunger-quelling mechanism, it's simple to toss a few of your favorite vegetables into not only rice but just about any meal.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I believe I can fly......

I’ve aim to be excellent in anything that I do. Excellent and no compromise – the highest, the best. Of course, when you’ve aimed, go to the maximum, the very maximum. So, do I. I am convinced and determined that the goal, the aim to be on the excellence path was achievable, not mission impossible. My motivation level was full, like the new- and- just-pumped-with-air-balloon. Full of spirit and energy, like the atoms at the most outside layer of the molecules, couldn’t wait any longer to flew, dancing, jumping, mingling with other molecules. The excitement was exploding, enormous, extravaganza. It’s like, I’m a dancer and I couldn’t keep my feet to stand still as it can’t wait to get on the dance floor.

But then.......it struck me right in the face, what should I dance?
Shall I tango?
Shall I tip toe?
Shall I ballet?
Shall I salsa?

OMG! I have lost the gist. It’s like I have a sweet dream, but I don’t fall asleep. I have an alluring slice of pecan butterscotch, but I don’t have appetite. I have a red Ferrari 458 Italia, but I don’t drive......

How pathetic.....I have everything except for the thing that I want-enjoy-love-to-do.......I want to be good, but I don’t know, in what, that I want to be good. I’m not sure whether this thought of mine is kind of confusing or amusing.

Hmmmm.......am I complicated or complication is part of me?

Since I am clueless, I’ve review the chronology....

In school, I was selected to attend to science classes, science stream because of the earlier examination results, so I followed and I was okay.

After school, I got engineering and science course offered, I took science. The decision was much influenced by my parents that really want me to go the university that offered the science course, chemistry to be precise. So, I obeyed and I was doing pretty well. I guessed, it was very much driven by the condition of my family. I grew up in the environment that make ones, think that life will be like hell without money. You have this-kind-of-thought that you shall have no friends, no one unless you have money. You need to earn money as much as you need to earn respect.

Therefore, with all these thoughts in mind, I need to get good grades, hence, obtain good job, earn good money and live life the way I want it to be. Thus..... I’ve been there. I’ve got what I’ve aimed for. Only little that I know, that, as a result, I have become a slave instead of a master to myself.

Am I working for money or the money working for me? It is satisfying, fulfilling to earn money and to lose everything else?

Can I get both, money and satisfaction? Can I amused the physical needs and the soul needs simultaneously?

I have a dream that I am spending my life doing the thing that I love most and at the same time, earn money, earn respect, fulfilling my responsibility as a muslim, as a citizen. Or even sweet and pleasurable, to be able to do the thing that I love most and money is not a factor. Meaning, I have a funder for the activities or I am a millionaire that earn passive income and hence my active life can be channel to the thing that I love most.

Hah....may my dreams came true........And I may continue searching, looking for the thing that I love most, to do, to enjoy, to love and to contribute most..... By the time my super fast jet ready, I shall knew the destination to fly :)


I Believe I Can Fly - R Kelly

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Chorus:]
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it


AYu