Raya photos - Oct 2008

Writing a book

I was thinking of writing a book. A novel :-) I have so many thoughts of what I actually like to do and how shall I use this likeness and turn it to something that I can do everyday, meaning like a career, which to me means, do things and get paid for it.

Anyway, still thinking and although I seldom write I believed that I am good at it, isn't ironic? Why do I have this thoughts? But anyway, I'm writing again, after many many years...hehehe...will it come true....

Old photos....

A photo taken during Rohani's wedding at Penang, can't remember what year. But I think many years already because Afiq already grown up, so as Adibah. See, Adibah busy sleeping.

Photo of Kak Long, Nabila, Amira and Afiq. Taken during last 2 years raya. They already grown up by now. Missed them....

The photo of my heart :) Getting bigger and bigger everyday and often asked a lot of questions, as usual....children nowadays....

Really like this photo because of Afiq's smile. Me however, close eyes, as usual, can't adapt to the flash :)

Ayu

The Carnival

On last Saturday, 2nd Aug, we went to The Carnival Sg Petani. We heard people said that the place was cool, same like sunway lagoon. Okay, so we went there. My goodness, I strongly think that the person whose giving this statement, has never ever been to Sunway Lagoon. Sunway Lagoon and The Carnival is very far different. Alamak, camner orang tu leh buat such comparison. Totally don't understand. Anyway, Afiq and Haiqal are having so much fun....at least these 2 guy are having much fun :)

Ayu

Don't loose that excitement!!

Why are our days when we are a children is never bored? Yeah yeah there are days during our childhood are boring days. But not so many isn'it kan? Hmmmmm

To me, as an so-called-adults, we see things differently from when we are children. Children thinking was quite relax, they don't think much and go through life with so many things to do, without caring much on whether they should do the thing or not. Especially, small little children, toddler. They tried everything, wanting to touch everything.. but yelah, small children maaa ....don't know yet to think what is right and what is wrong.

But look at the excitement, they are excited when they get new thing. Excited when they meet their friends. As we grew older, I think, we that we think a lot. Well, yes, you should do the thinking before we do something, especially something serious, but then when we think too much, which is sometimes, not necessary, we tend to move backward instead of forward. We were so scare to face the consequences of might that will happen after we make the decision. We're loosing that bravery to try new things once we grew older.

And when we stop trying, the next thing that we will loose is the excitement in life. Yelah, when you did not do new things or did not act differently or changes things, and everyday is the same day, then of course there is no excitement. Of course getting excited everyday also is not something healthy for adults. But once in a while, is necessary or your life will be dead boring.

And not only you're life is boring, the next worst thing that will happen is that you tend to do something unhealthy. For example, for married man, they tend to find new girl friend and start flirting. For singles, they tend to get involved with the wrong people. Something like that.

So, before, you go wild without direction and becoming something that you don't want to, better you go wild with direction. Create excitement in your life, try new things like upgrading your skills, learn something new that will make you a better person and my goodness, there are so many things to trya and to do. So, don't think too much and created that excitement but of course lah people, don't go over the boundry lah.....

Love,
Ayu

So unlucky of me.......

I blew out an job interview opportunity today. I don't know why. But I felt that I'm sick attending interview and at the end no good results come out. So, due to my frustration, I refused to attend interview with so many reasons. And there goes an opportunity.........

However, I still want some changes, new job, meeting new peoples, learning new things but may be this wanting is not so high. The other site of me, do not want any changes, too afraid to face the excitement and very comfortable with current condition.

And also actually, I just don't know what to do with my life....I don't know what I like to do and where should I begin. Or is there any turn over point after this 8 years stuck in my current company. Ohhh I just don't know, where should I start.....and how to start actually!!

Ayu

What do you really like to do?

What do you really like to do?

I keep thinking about this. Well yes, I have the answer. I really like to eat. I like to eat different kind of food, eating at different type of places. Despite that, I do not have problem eating eventough I am not hungry. Whatever lalu I will sapu, of courselah halal food.

So if I like to eat does it mean that I should change career, involve in the food industry? Ehmmm yeah why not.

John Ruskin said, When love and skill work together, expect a materpiece. So, for my case, I like to eat but do not have the relevant skills. Love is already there but skill is still nowhere to be found. I am not even a good cook. Don't even mentioned about the so-delicious-look-like dishes that Chef Wan made but simple food for my family to eat also, I am still below very far below average....

So what is the point here.... If you knew what you like to do, then do it, go for it, find the skills and make it work for you, meaning can make money loh... or in simple term, can cari makan loh. So that you do not so suffer doing your job everyday, because you like it. Am I suffering now??? Oppss......