wanita itu

wanita itu seorang isteri
perlu menjaga hak suami
peribadi diri perlu kelas A
bukan itu sahaja...isteri perlu tampil berseri
perlu jaga badan..jaga makan...jaga pakaian
agar isteri mampu bersaing dgn yang ramai lagi di luar sana
yang hari-hari mendampingi sang suami
dan hari-hari juga isteri berdoa agar suami tidak lupa diri...tidak lupa isteri...
tetapi apabila lupa...isteri terpaksa redha jua
apakan daya....mahukan syurga
maka terpaksa menelan karenah dunia...
yang huru hara...

wanita itu seorang ibu
perlu berperibadi mulia
lebih kelas A
kerana si kecil si teruna si dara di rumah
memerhati sentiasa tingkah laku ibu
berdoa juga perlu hari-hari
kerana mahukan zuriat kelas A buat suami
walau pun suami selalu tiada di sisi
tetapi tetap suami mahukan yg kelas A
tanpa tahu tanpa peduli
sukarnya menjadikan yang A
kerana dunia yg penuh dengan yang D, E dan F
apabila zuriat tidak menjadi
salah ibu...salah ibu...kata semua

wanita itu berkerjaya
walaupun sibuk mengurus rumah dan tangga
walaupun sibuk menjaga diri agar boleh tampil seperti super model di hadapan suami
walaupun sudah macam bekerja 24 jam sehari
isteri...ibu itu...berkerja jua di kantor
untuk membantu suami menjana ekonomi
bukan kerjaya sangat yang isteri mahukan
tapi apakan daya
dunia terlalu memaksa...
no money no talk

dengan itu sibuknya wanita itu
menjaga rumah dan tangga
menjaga isi rumah dan tangga
menjaga ketua rumah dan tangga
menolong menjadi ketua rumah dan tangga
dan juga menjaga tangga di kantor...

walau pun sudah banyak tugas wanita itu
dia tetap perlu
menjaga diri
mendandan diri
menjaga berat badan
menjaga kedutan di muka
menjaga cinta

banyak yang perlu di jaga...
walau pun tak cukup masa untuk buat semuanya...

dan wanita itu tetap bertahan jua...
tetap mampu
tetap dedikasi
kerana mendamba cinta
dari suami
dari permata-permata hati
agar apabila mati
mendapat redha Ilahi

Adibah is 8 :)

thank you Allah
thank you Allah
for lending me Nurul Adibah
for giving me the opportunity to love to live to look after Your Jannah girl

thank you Allah
thank you Allah
forgive me for there are times in difficulties
that i wish to turn back time
to reverse back life
to give up hope
o Allah forgive me....forgive me....

thank you Allah
thank you Allah
for the strength
for the happiness
for the togetherness
for the health and wealth that comes together with Your Jannah girl
thank you so much.....

Let's choose to be fit and healthy :)

In my life, now is the phase where i have to think about health, about reducing weight so that i wont't be in the obesity category, to be fit, to enable me to run and play without having to face the out-of-breath situation at only the first 2minutes....hmmm....

It is not that before this i did not need to think about reducing weight and stay healthy but before this my life, my schedule is very different. I eat a lot but i remained thin because all the calories were used. But now...i eat a lot, but i do nothing. So the calories were all turned to fat which then turned me to over weight. I have lost the pleasure of eating a lot but did not put on weight. Missed those years...

Ok...enough of the pass....time move on and so do us...we need to move on....and this is what make life interesting...you were given different set of tasks at different time...so you need to once in a while strategize again to fit our conditions...or else life will be bored la kan ;)

I would like to be fit. This is my mission. And this mission is in my dream. Execution wise - failed.

I wondered why it failed. And i say to myself, because i love eating. I don't see ways on aligning the mission and the action. Hence the mission become mission impossible, the version of mission impossible without mr tom C in it...

I've read in Dr Covey book on how a man decided to be healthy....the story goes like this....

I had been working very hard in my career. By the time i turned forty-five, i was quite successful. I was also about sixty pounds overweight, a compulsive eater during times of stress, and one who didn' t have time to exercise regularly because of work. On his fifth birthday, my son, Logan, gave me a book on healthy living. Inside, his mother had helped him write the following words: "Daddy, for my birthday this year, I want you to be healthy. I want you to be around a while". Talk about a punch in the gut..ouch...that plea from my son changed my perspective of my lifestyle completely....

The story above is quite long in Dr Covey's book and i am lazy typing. But this man committed himself to being healthy for his children, not to lose weight but to be healthy. The plea from his son is a strong driver to him to be healthy. So, i need that strong driver too. I need a real purpose, the end in mind of what i wanted from this mission. And in order to stay persistent, i need to remind myself of the purpose and vision again and again...

But yes....what else could be a good driver for you other than your love ones. We need to be healthy for our love ones so that we could go through life with them happily. We can't compromise work and money with health. Working and working while ignoring health will most likely resulted with us spending that money that we earned to cure our unhealthy body. And if we die due to our recklessness in taking care of our body, then we shall have to answer to Allah. So, why choose this option?

No time to exercise? I often gave these reasons.....and well....there are reasons that you can get rid of...if you want to....

The truth is ugly....but yes....we are what we choose to be...We are responsible to our own body....so before its too late....minna san...let's practise healthy life style :)

12 years

it's been 12 years
thank you Allah for lending me
a wonderful husband
a generous caring best friend
an outstanding soul partner
a fantastic funny team mate
a kind-hearted man

thank you Allah
thank you Allah

but still i wanted to ask for more

let love unite us till we reach Your Jannah
let this love grow stronger with time
grant me strength capability and skills
to be the perfect wife for this great guy
because i am now so greedy ya Allah
i wanted to love and to be love by this man till the end of my life

o Allah....

but still i understood
your plan is the best plan and
hence your plan came fully equipped

thus again thank you Allah...for these lovely 12 years and more years to come...insyaAllah

my little big bunny

i have a little big bunny
she is little but she is big
she is cute like a bunny
she make noises like it was so funny
and when she giggles, my world so sunny

my little big bunny
why are you so big but little
why are so funny and make my world shiny
why you often smiley when the world is crazy
oh my little big bunny
oh my little big bunny

i was always confused with my little big bunny
because she was little but big
she was cute but is not a bunny
she is so funny, smiley and smarty
oh my little big bunny
don't worry
you will always be my baby

career?

Recently i have been thinking about quitting job. But it is not about whether i should quit or not but it is about what to do after i quit. What is my plan? Alhamdulillah...i have never thought that these days....the days when i am thinking about my life...about my passion without the element of worry-about-money in it....thank you so much to Allah and my husband for these days....

A few months back, i attended a wedding of my old best friend...she is a phd holder now...and another old best friend...a high rank officer that worked at an oil and gas company at klcc...hmmm....at that time...i am a bit shamed with my current career status...what if i quit my job and my status is housewife...how will it feel....i've been there for a short while and not so sure on whether i am able to carry the title again...will i...after having that housewife status, will still be interested to meet my sophisticated...intellectual friends...or i just stay home and away...to be emotionally protected and safe...

but another part of me...wanting to spend my time...my entire time with my kids and my husband....to live together under one roof and stay closer...like what a family should be, to me.... being far and away with my life partner often make me worries of his condition....and making me felt useless as a life partner...eventhough we have a mutual understanding of why we remain this way and leading this kind of life...but still the ideal case for me...a family should stay under one roof together....

and will giving up my career be fine with me...eventhough i felt ashamed with it but i actually have given up my career...this ladies working world is not for me....and now looking at my life partner's career....i felt proud because i have contributed to the born of another muslim businessman....he got what he wants, successfully...what matters most in having a career is that you love what you do....its your passion...then only it will be call...on top of your career ;) or else it will be call...working for money and money alone...

okay...so come back to me... the aging woman with low career status planning to quit and become a housewife but have houseless skills and still clueless of what to do at the house...hmmm that's me....

when i was at mid valley...we went to a bookstore and i found these books...








hmmm i was thinking....i can write these books....hehehe....i can, of course if i can really focus, consistent and persistence..the missing elements in my life...

no wonder nothing happens....

mirror...mirror...in my heart

i look at the mirror
and with a smile i start the day
and wonder where is he
and next i...check the phone
did he call while i were fast asleep
did he leave a message
if there is none
i wonder again....why didn't he
is he okay....

and my heart beat faster
i am smiling
happy....excited...with tears falling down
seeing him is all i need
hearing him is what i want
hold to him and never let go
is all that i dreamt of

i look at the mirror
and say to myself
i love him
so very much
and wishing for all the best in the world
for him
for the love
that i treasure in my little tiny heart...
for all that matters..
the love is in my heart
forever....unconditional...