Recently, there were many events that make me unhappy, stress, disappointed. I did not cry although I felt hurt, tired, and since I’m such a positive person and always believed that what happened had happened and there’s nothing I can do to change it…..
But until last Friday, I felt like I can’t hold it anymore. I cried and cried for almost half an hour. I blamed myself for all that happened. Although by crying does not help to solve any issue, but it helps because I felt released, satisfied. Then I come back to my senses. And was thinking, why actually I cried? Was it because all that had happened? What had happened were not something that I can’t handle? I’ve been through a lot of much more worst things that this. So, why?
I cried because I felt alone, I felt like there’s nobody that I can share with, to lean to, a shoulder to cry on when I needed it most. I cried because I felt that nobody cares and that I am on my own. There’s nobody saying that it’s okay, move on, don’t worry…….All I needed was a close friend telling me this, to persuade my heart……was I acting childish? Yeah, a bit I guess…..but 1 point lesson is that, when someone you love facing a hard time, or not-so-hard-time, it will be good, comforting, to just be there and listen…..for some times, this is just what we need….
So, I knew why I was crying. It is not wrong to be sad, disappointed. We’re human, so we cry when we sad. We have the right to be angry. But we must know why we’re sad, why we’re angry. We must know the reason of these emotions. And from there we work for the solutions. In order to recover, to continue, to move on, we must come back to the principle.
What had happened can’t be change, even though with tears of blood. What we can change is how we look at it, how we deal with it, how we make the best out of it. How to view the sadness, the disappointments from another perspective, another angle of view? And of course it is not as easy as writing it down, but it is possible, it is something that we can do, if we choose to do it. And as Muslims, we must always come back to the creator………
AYu
