I've quit job, after almost 9 years and joined another company (for less than 2 month) and then quit again and now I am a full time housewife. The "full time" is really full. One thing I didn't know about this job is that it is a 24 hours job, 7 days a week, no annual leave, no emergency leave. Not that I did not realise it before this, but never thought that I'll be so busy and even more difficult to find time for myself. Hmmm....
For the first few month, I'm in this new career, I was so busy searching for other job because I was worried of that money matters. And to make it worst, everyone that I've meet told me that I should work and that a housewife title seems does not fit me well. And I believed what they said. I believed that I should not become a full time housewife. I'm a woman with high education, I'm doing good in my career, so how do I end up a home maker? A full time housewife? I really cannot tahan that almost everyone that I've met looked down on me and my new career. Or may be its me myself that looked down on me. No one can looked down on you, make you feel bad without your permission. So, I permitted them to make feel bad.
This new career is what I'm looking for all these years, but why am I not happy? Because I am worried about that money matters again. But I should be happy, this is my dream. I want to take care of my kids, I want to do everything with them, I want to be with them. And of course for Adibah, my special one. She needs me, very much.
Today I pick up Afiq from school. Once he entered the car, he looked back to Adibah. Kiss here and kiss her and kiss her. Yeah, I finally realise that Afiq is now closer to Adibah. He hugged her, played with her. So, as Adibah. She loved gomoi her abang. She giggles, loughes a lot when they played together. Before this, Afiq seldom got chance to play with her sister. Why? Because once I left home to office, Adibah will be gone too. I'll send her to the babysitter. I reached home at night and so as Adibah.
Looking at Afiq kissing Adibah, playing with her, listening to their lough, what else would I want?I am so happy. And if this new career can give me "these happiness", that money would not be able to buy, so be it.
I am glad and I have no regrets.
Ayu
