Recently i have been thinking about quitting job. But it is not about whether i should quit or not but it is about what to do after i quit. What is my plan? Alhamdulillah...i have never thought that these days....the days when i am thinking about my life...about my passion without the element of worry-about-money in it....thank you so much to Allah and my husband for these days....
A few months back, i attended a wedding of my old best friend...she is a phd holder now...and another old best friend...a high rank officer that worked at an oil and gas company at klcc...hmmm....at that time...i am a bit shamed with my current career status...what if i quit my job and my status is housewife...how will it feel....i've been there for a short while and not so sure on whether i am able to carry the title again...will i...after having that housewife status, will still be interested to meet my sophisticated...intellectual friends...or i just stay home and away...to be emotionally protected and safe...
but another part of me...wanting to spend my time...my entire time with my kids and my husband....to live together under one roof and stay closer...like what a family should be, to me.... being far and away with my life partner often make me worries of his condition....and making me felt useless as a life partner...eventhough we have a mutual understanding of why we remain this way and leading this kind of life...but still the ideal case for me...a family should stay under one roof together....
and will giving up my career be fine with me...eventhough i felt ashamed with it but i actually have given up my career...this ladies working world is not for me....and now looking at my life partner's career....i felt proud because i have contributed to the born of another muslim businessman....he got what he wants, successfully...what matters most in having a career is that you love what you do....its your passion...then only it will be call...on top of your career ;) or else it will be call...working for money and money alone...
okay...so come back to me... the aging woman with low career status planning to quit and become a housewife but have houseless skills and still clueless of what to do at the house...hmmm that's me....
when i was at mid valley...we went to a bookstore and i found these books...
hmmm i was thinking....i can write these books....hehehe....i can, of course if i can really focus, consistent and persistence..the missing elements in my life...
no wonder nothing happens....
A few months back, i attended a wedding of my old best friend...she is a phd holder now...and another old best friend...a high rank officer that worked at an oil and gas company at klcc...hmmm....at that time...i am a bit shamed with my current career status...what if i quit my job and my status is housewife...how will it feel....i've been there for a short while and not so sure on whether i am able to carry the title again...will i...after having that housewife status, will still be interested to meet my sophisticated...intellectual friends...or i just stay home and away...to be emotionally protected and safe...
but another part of me...wanting to spend my time...my entire time with my kids and my husband....to live together under one roof and stay closer...like what a family should be, to me.... being far and away with my life partner often make me worries of his condition....and making me felt useless as a life partner...eventhough we have a mutual understanding of why we remain this way and leading this kind of life...but still the ideal case for me...a family should stay under one roof together....
and will giving up my career be fine with me...eventhough i felt ashamed with it but i actually have given up my career...this ladies working world is not for me....and now looking at my life partner's career....i felt proud because i have contributed to the born of another muslim businessman....he got what he wants, successfully...what matters most in having a career is that you love what you do....its your passion...then only it will be call...on top of your career ;) or else it will be call...working for money and money alone...
okay...so come back to me... the aging woman with low career status planning to quit and become a housewife but have houseless skills and still clueless of what to do at the house...hmmm that's me....
when i was at mid valley...we went to a bookstore and i found these books...
hmmm i was thinking....i can write these books....hehehe....i can, of course if i can really focus, consistent and persistence..the missing elements in my life...
no wonder nothing happens....
2 comments:
sape kata nothing happens. kdg2 yg x nmpk tu lah sbnrnya yg berlaku. hihi.. kak ayu, kalau awak nk berenti keja, sy pun nk berenti jugak. flagship dh semakin berkurang. ruang untuk mengexplore dunia bahan termaju semakin sempit buat diriku ini. keinginan pun kian memudar.. huk huk.
cik Fazira...u leh wat chicken pie ;))
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